Open Doors / Closed Doors

Hello All
Well I had my 3 month official weigh in today. These are what I term as "official" because Insurance Companys, in most cases require three (3) to six (6) months of supervised Weight reduction before they will cosider paying for the surgery. I met my goal that I have set. I was 509 this morning. That is 40 pound gone with 60 to goe. So lets be honest here, The first month I really did not try very hard and only lost three (3) or four (4) pounds all month. But the second month I got inspired and the this month I had the hope of recieving a tool that could help me when used properly. The only thing that stood in the way was me.So I buckled down and got real serious about it and here I am, 40 ounds lighter. I know I have answered this before but to retouch it because there are new people reading. Why have the surgery if you can lose weight like this? I have lost and gained more weight than I can remember, I always do great until around 430. Then my body just shuts down. This has happened two or three times before. I struggle for months and finally give up. This time after getting to my usal shut down time I will be small enough to have surgery. Then with that tool I will be able to continue. YOU should know what your body can and can not do. There is a difference in what your body can do or is telling you something and what your mind is telling you. Example: Walking, If I listened to my mind I would do one (1) lap and quit. But when you go on you find out that the body can do more. So when your body is telling you something, Listen to it.

My short term goal for surgery is late October of this year. If all stays on track with no big stalls I could do it. But I have a long term goal also. Do not ever give your self only one option because then when you miss it you are more likly to give up. So my long term is by February of 2012. But I am going to try hard to make the short term goal.

I use to look at people around me that I went to school with and think "man I messed up". I would see them with good families, a good job, a house, etc. Here I was still trying to find work, never having a steady anything. My marriage did not even last a year. You know it takes two to tango so that was not just things she did. But know I look back and see a whole different picture. If I would have settled down I would have never got to enjoy the beuty of God's handy work in places like Arizona, Texas, Georgia, Tennesse, Missouri, Washington, California, and of course Colorado. I would never have had the experince that make me who I am today. If I would have finished my teaching degree I would have been a teacher in a school in one or two areas. That would have been ok but I would be a teacher. I could have fought for my rights as a police officer after finishing law enforcement training and be a police officer but I would have been a police officer. I guess in the short of it is I have done that and much more. I have been the law inforcer, teacher, councelor, cook, bussiness person, computer tech all through what I did do. I never had the titles but I did the jobs and loved them. So looking back I see I did not fail I just "did it my way" Thanks Franky. If that comment goes over your head I am older than I thought. lol

So I just want to say, don't give up on your dreams. I believe God opens doors where he wants you to go and when you go through the wrong door on your own He just recalculates and closes some doors and opens others. I just think I am where I am because I am suppose to be here. I have met a lot of people on this trip from all over the world and for the most part consider them friends. I belive it was Will Rogers who said, "A stranger is just a friend I have't met yet". Well that is how I have tried to live and in most cases succeeded.



May The Lord Continue To Bless You All! Tom